Week 7

Catching up! Written 9/20/09

7 weeks, 2 days.

My baby has a heartbeat.

Those are the most beautiful words I have heard since “You are beautifully pregnant”.

Strong fetal heartbeat of 141. And I only had to sit in an ER for 5 hours to find that out.

And two more hours of sitting entitled me to a killer shot.

But it’s all worth it because my baby has a heartbeat.

I was so sure it was over. But was I? Deep in my soul did I really think it was over? I’m not sure. I saw blood, I panicked … it’s not like I had a whole lot of time for soul searching. I was too busy assuming the worst, and going to the bathroom. And washing my hands to avoid the Swine Flu. Emergency rooms are gross.

I just remember saying over and over and over … I can’t believe it. This sucks. I can’t believe this is happening. This is so unfair. I can’t believe it. Is this really happening?

I remember at one point thinking, Wow, you sure were dead wrong—you really thought this one was going to stick. Sucks to be you. Or me. Whatever.

Sitting in the hospital, I couldn’t tell if my hopes were rising and peace was settling in my soul, or if Mike and Kelly were just making me laugh a lot and stay distracted. The one time Erik and I went into a triage room without Kelly and Mike, the reality of why we were there struck us both, and I started crying. I just can’t lose another pregnancy. I’m so grateful for friends who stuck with us for 7 hours in the ER. Who does that?!

This is my favorite quote ever: Up to a quarter of pregnant women have some spotting or bleeding in early pregnancy, and about half of these women miscarry. But if you have an ultrasound that shows a normal heartbeat between 7 and 11 weeks, your chances of continuing the pregnancy are greater than 90 percent.

Please, God, let that be us.

Right after finding out the baby was alive!

Our awesome friends, Mike and Kelly, would distracted us all night!

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About kristinlindeen

I am Kristin. I am Erik's wife. I am Joshua, Rebecca, and Andrew's mom. I am known nationally as the "QBQ! Daughter" and keynote on Personal Accountability and the QBQ. I am certified in Myers Briggs and am passionate about helping people understand themselves and others better. I am John and Karen's daughter. I am sister to many, mentor to some, friend to others. Most defining, I am Christ's daughter, adopted by God--rescued and saved by grace. And almost every single day, I need to be reminded of that truth. Come say "hi" at www.QBQ.com and of course, browse the blog! I'd love to hear from you, so comment away!
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5 Responses to Week 7

  1. Amber Lianne says:

    Praying… love you! So happy for you!

  2. Cress Press says:

    Keep the hope! I had the same thing happen with the baby I am carrying now and they told me I had miscarried or was defiantly going to…isn't it wonderful to see that heartbeat! I am now almost seven months with a wiggley energetic "definite miscarriage". God will get you through all the worries, trust that, for there will be many more before this is done. We are praying for you! Sarahday.

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  4. Praise the Lord! Sam and I are so happy for you and will continue to pray for you, Erik , and your sweet little baby.Amanda

  5. Emily says:

    How scary! I didn't know if you knew this, but with my pregnancy with Kinsley, I had many, many bleeding episodes. I had some complications with her, and they kept telling me that at any time I could miscarry. They just didn't know what would happen. It ended up that I had a blood clot in my uterus that made me bleed randomly. There were times where there was a lot of blood and I thought there was NO WAY that she was still alive in there! So, I'm just telling you this so that if this happens to you again, don't give up hope! I found out, like you did, that bleeding is quite normal in pregnancies but no one ever told me that. Amen, Amen, Amen again and again for you guys! I'm just so happy!

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