So …. I guess I live in Wisconsin now.
It’s such a strange phenomenon, in this modern world of ours, to move to a new place. I often forget we’ve moved.
In Home Depot, which looks the exact same as in Colorado, I can let the reality of our move fade into the recesses of my mind while working with the paint guy and Erik to determine paint colors. It’s as if nothing has changed and we’ve just decided to repaint a room and finally invest in a step stool. Until suddenly I’m snapped back to reality when the paint guy says, “Oh, so you’re gonna wanna buy a snowblower sooner rather than later,” with full Wisconsin accent.
Smack–I’m back in reality and remembering that I now live in Wisconsin.
Same thing happened at Chilis the other night. I’m enjoying chips and salsa, like normal, with good friends, like normal, when all of the sudden a Menards commercial plays and that jingle “Save big money at Menards” that you only know if you’ve lived near a Menards in the past threw me smack right back into reality.
I now live in Wisconsin.
Every time I step outside and feel humidity … smack, reality.
Every time I get in my car and realize I have NO idea where I’m going … smack, reality.
Every time I wonder when I get to be done with this “camp” like experience and go back home … smack reality.
Every time I think about dropping Joshua off to visit his grandparents … smack, reality.
Every time I realize I feel like I’m just playing house and I’ll go back to mine sometime … smack, reality.
Moving is a strange thing. Especially in our society where most cities and towns have the same big-box stores, similar building styles, and generally nice people. It’s seriously easy to forget that you’ve moved from your home, family and friends until …. smack. Something slams you right back into reality.
Reality is, moving is hard. Reality is, we made this choice, and we will get through this transition.
No matter how many “smacks” it takes, I will start to adjust to my new reality.