And what I’m learning, is that I don’t have to “get through” or “deal”–it’s great! I love it! Yeah, it’s tough discerning what’s best for him all day long, and it’s hard sometimes to lay down my own desires minute after minute, but it’s so exhilarating to realize that I CAN do this. I can be a Mom, I can keep a house (keep it perfect? No. Keep it liveable and happy? Yes.) I can work, I can enjoy, I can live in this new place, with my husband, with my son, all by myself.
I love my life.
Joshua is such a joy, my husband is such a servant and leader, and I love Fall.
It’s strange to live in this new place, and not really know anyone, but it has been good for us–good for me.
Instead of running off to hang out with teens, meet with a friend, or crash at my parents’ place, I have to–get to–learn to do life all by myself. Be a mom, all by myself. Get through day-to-day life with an 18 month old, all by myself.