And what I’m learning, is that I don’t have to “get through” or “deal”–it’s great! I love it! Yeah, it’s tough discerning what’s best for him all day long, and it’s hard sometimes to lay down my own desires minute after minute, but it’s so exhilarating to realize that I CAN do this. I can be a Mom, I can keep a house (keep it perfect? No. Keep it liveable and happy? Yes.) I can work, I can enjoy, I can live in this new place, with my husband, with my son, all by myself.