Sacred Moments

I’m unnecessarily impatient.

Only 5 days past my 38th week, and I’m aimless, lethargic, and wondering why she hasn’t come yet. Silly me–expecting her to be as early as her brother!

So, today, I decided to make the best of it, which meant giving myself the freedom to do absolutely anything Joshua wanted to do. No “No, honey, not now.” or “Later baby, Mommy’s busy!” Just a lot of “Sure!” “Good idea!” “Oh, you want another buckets of toys? Why not!”

Because I know that any day now (or next week or the next …) I won’t be at liberty to do this anymore. There will be another little human being who actually needs me more urgently than Joshua, and he and I will have to learn to be more separate. So today, I’m soaking up my Joshua time. And boy or boy, does that kid know how to play!

We dove into all sorts of activities. From bubbles, to squirt gun fights, and making of “yum yum” soup (day old hose water with bits of leaves), we had a blast on the deck in the morning shade.
More for Mommy’s sanity than for Joshua’s, we took a break and watched “Word World” my I mean Joshua’s favorite cartoon. We munched on Cheerios and raisins and cuddled up under the froggie blanket on the couch.
Play-Doh was our next endeavor, and while I sat and made cookie cutter animal cutouts, Joshua used the spaghetti maker to make good “yum yum” food for his horse, Roxy.
We did some painting, some coloring, some dancing, some singing, some lay-on-the-floor chatting. Then we did some more painting. (And Mommy learned patience as her son mixed all the colors together to create … ugly colors.) It’s amazing how hard it can be to just let him create, instead of trying to show him how to do it “well”. But how incredibly important to do so–for both him and for me! What he creates is so much sweeter than what I would do perfectly-within-the-lines with amazing color coordination and design. I’ll take Joshua’s creations any day!

We applied tattoos, picked up toys and dumped out new ones. We took some videos and talked a lot about baby sister. I didn’t clean, I didn’t email, I didn’t sort, I didn’t fold. I admit, I checked Facebook, and I obviously took photos, but this time was intended to be with my son. Not just near or around, but with. And it was fun!  

 There’s truly nothing like taking a moment to relax on the couch and simply listen to the unintelligible language of your two year old as he plays with “rawrs” “people” and “tractors”.

When he dribbled black water on the floor, all I could do was give him high five for making it to the sink without completely spilling and thank him for cleaning up his paint project. When he got in the way of my shot of the black water, all I could do was giggle at the awesome picture I captured of a two year old’s delight. That face just screams, “My Mommy is present with me, and playing, and I think it’s a BLAST to get in the lens of her camera!”

 And what better way to end our time than this: I was putting my tired puffy feet up on the couch and enjoying the sounds of Joshua playing with his Tonka cars. His level of exuberance matched my level of fatigue. Funny how that works! All of the sudden he quieted, and I heard him say his name for his baby sister. He then appeared at my side with his baby doll (named after his sister) and said very clear, “Cuddle deez Mama?”

Yes, Baby, we can cuddle. Today is do-whatever-you-want day. And Mommy sure loves to take time to cuddle!

 As he rested his head on my shoulder, he very adamantly placed baby on my other shoulder and indicated I should hug her. He then proceeded to share his raisins and Cheerios with his baby sister, while he actual baby sister pelted him with strong kicks from inside of me. We talked about life, and how we’re going to make a birthday cake for the baby.

Today has been a good day. The house is not clean, the hospital bag is still only partially packed. I have unanswered emails, unwashed dishes, and a dozen little tasks I could be doing instead. But time with my Joshua is fleeting–and I truly don’t know how much of this special one-on-one with my Little Buddy I have left. So for now he naps, and I’ll rest too. Cuz once he’s up and at ’em again, who knows what we’ll do!

What has motherhood taught me in 2 1/2 years? The moments are miraculous, but we have to have to have to make time for them. And so today, I did. Because I could!



About kristinlindeen

I am Kristin. I am Erik's wife. I am Joshua, Rebecca, and Andrew's mom. I am known nationally as the "QBQ! Daughter" and keynote on Personal Accountability and the QBQ. I am certified in Myers Briggs and am passionate about helping people understand themselves and others better. I am John and Karen's daughter. I am sister to many, mentor to some, friend to others. Most defining, I am Christ's daughter, adopted by God--rescued and saved by grace. And almost every single day, I need to be reminded of that truth. Come say "hi" at and of course, browse the blog! I'd love to hear from you, so comment away!
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