Be Near

Do you hang verses around your home in an attempt to be immersed in God’s word?

I do. Every other cupboard door, over the stove, on the side of the microwave that faces my so called “office” in the kitchen. My bathroom door, the linen closet door, the kitchen window sill. The verses are all over, and yet, I rarely see them.

(To be fair, I do read the one on the linen closet door, only because the toilet faces that door. So … yeah. I do read that one.)

Today I’ve been feeling a bit blue. “I’m blue.” –Rachel, from “Friends” (Brittany Miller, name that episode… ๐Ÿ™‚ ) I think it’s a whole bunch of things. It’s the weather, it’s some changes in our life, it’s contemplating going back to work and all that means for my daily life with two young kids. (Dad, if you’re reading this, I like my job and no, I won’t quit. I know you need to retire… :P)

It’s my perpetual headache, my endless sinus infections, the lack of girl time, the tantrums of my precious two year old. My blue feeling is a product of a whole bunch of things.

So as I sat down to blog, with really nothing in particular to write about–just knowing that writing tends to help me–I paused. My eyes wandered to the pile of random coupons, “to-dos”, and hospital bills (ick). My gaze caught a verse that I’d taped to the microwave months ago.  One that is there, in my eyesight every day, that I don’t think I’ve read since I wrote it down.

Nevertheless, I am continually with you; you hold my right hand. You guide me with your counsel, and afterward you will receive me to glory. Who have I in heaven but you? And there is nothing on earth that I desire besides you. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

 I may be blue, but that verse can’t NOT lift my spirits. “Nevertheless” — no matter what. No matter headaches, or monotony of motherhood, or tantrums. “Continually” — all of the time. Never ending. Never ceasing.

For behold, those who are far from you shall perish; you put an end to everyone who is unfaithful to you. But for me it is good to be near God; I have made the Lord God my refuge that I may tell of all your works. Psalm 73:23-28

“Good to be near” — close to. Residing with. Snuggled up. I must say, I am not always near God. I have verses plastered around my house in an attempt to stay connected. I spend at least a few minutes most days reading my Bible, trying to journal some thoughts. I make prayer lists, and attempt to lift my voice to the Lord. I play worship music (or Joshua does) as we play and do chores. And yet … I’m so often not “near” Him. I’ve put all these things in my life to help me get near, but I rarely actually draw near. Why is that?

If you have an answer, or some experience with a possible answer, please comment. ๐Ÿ™‚

“But for me it is good to be near …” It’s a choice. I guess I just have to choose more often to pause, read those verses on the kitchen window sill, the bathroom door, the microwave side. It’s a choice to be near.

 

Advertisements

About kristinlindeen

I am Kristin. I am Erik's wife. I am Joshua, Rebecca, and Andrew's mom. I am known nationally as the "QBQ! Daughter" and keynote on Personal Accountability and the QBQ. I am certified in Myers Briggs and am passionate about helping people understand themselves and others better. I am John and Karen's daughter. I am sister to many, mentor to some, friend to others. Most defining, I am Christ's daughter, adopted by God--rescued and saved by grace. And almost every single day, I need to be reminded of that truth. Come say "hi" at www.QBQ.com and of course, browse the blog! I'd love to hear from you, so comment away!
This entry was posted in God, On Faith and this Life. Bookmark the permalink.

One Response to Be Near

  1. Showers can be great ways to commune with God. Play worship in the bathroom and just soak in him. It's also a good place to think, so you'll already have things come to mind and you can talk to God about them. Whenever I'm super busy and haven't had a chance to spend time with God I'll do it as I take a shower, where nothing can disturb me.

I'd love to hear from you!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s