But it’s not always a good feeling.
The God of the universe works all things for good for those who love him. So whether or not I’ve made every single choice willingly, heard every call accurately, or decided every decision with clarity, He has promised to work all things for good.
And I truly believe that even when I’ve done my best to honor His call, there are so many other dynamics at play. Other people who play a role. Who have their own choices that change the dynamics. Circumstances that can vary this way or that. Emotions that can wreak havoc on any decision, but especially the difficult ones. My own actions or inaction that change the situation.
And then there’s that whole truth that God reveals things only as we need to know them. Every single time that I’ve been called to move on to the next ‘Big Thing’ in life, it has come very suddenly–very unexpectedly. Every. single. time.
We moved to Colorado from Minnesota in the blink of an eye when I was just 15.
I agonized for months about what college to choose, but within days of receiving a pamphlet, was settled on the one I chose and on my way to school.
Convinced I was supposed to spend my junior year investing in freshmen and sophomore girls, I told myself I wouldn’t date. Then God literally forced one guy named Erik into my life and the rest is history.
Three months before our wedding, we had no idea what Erik would do for a job, or where we’d live. Within hours, he’d had an offer and we now knew God had a plan for us in Colorado–completely and totally unexpected!
After a horrible day at a temp job, I walked into the HR office at the University I ended up working at for almost 3 years. Didn’t even know this place existed, until God dropped it in my lap.
Asking God to clearly open or clearly shut a door worked out well with a job offer in Portland. He shut it. Clearly. 🙂
Within days, after 2 years at a job I liked, God opened my eyes to the next steps in my journey and I was off on an adventure working for family.
During difficult, pray-filled months, asking God for clear next steps, we got no answers. Until, through a tough conversation, a week of confusion, and a phone call to a friend, we heard a new call: to Madison.
Thinking we were where we were for a few years to come, yet sensing a call to step out and lead … blindsided by a different plan, one that is still unfolding. Being sifted, sorted, broken down and remolded. Piece by piece, step by step, God always has, and will continue to show us His way. Do we know where we are going? No. Do we know this is right? Yes. To move on, to move out, to continue in trust. That’s all we can do right now, and as always before, when it is time, He will speak. He will move, and He will make clear His will. He always has, and He always will.
“Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, ‘This is the way; walk in it.'” Isaiah 30:21