Day 1 of 3 Day Cleanse

I have a headache. I’m irritable. I’m fatigued. I’m freezing (that’s just cuz it’s Wisconsin in February, I guess.) I’m battling cravings. I wanna give in. (Oops–I did. More on that later.)

Apparently all of this means it’s working, right?

I’ve done cleanses in the past. This time, my husband chose to do it with me, and we opted for a fairly simple/cheap one. We found Dr. Oz’s 3 Day Cleanse online, and I made a list and went grocery shopping! Honestly, at this point, that was probably the hardest part. Of course, I chose to do with at 4pm with two kids under 4. Yikes!

How do I feel? 

I felt okay til mid afternoon. I think by then the lack of caffeine (normally I’ve had a pot of coffee by then and I’m gearing up for another cup or two), combined with the deprivation of sugar (yes, I’m an addict) hit hard.

How does it taste? 

The Lunch Shake

Well, the morning shake wasn’t horrible! But then the lunch shake …. *shivers* It took me almost two hours to get that thing down. Seriously, that’s a LOT of food! Plus, we only have a $20 blender from Target, so it’s pretty chunky. The dinner shake was okay. Cayenne pepper spices it up a bit … or a lot!

Have you cheated? 

Yes. Sadly. I was putting away raisins earlier today, and popped a couple. My 17 month chucked her quesadilla on the floor, and I definitely ate three small pieces (like, bite size) before I realized what I was doing. {I knew exactly what I was doing.} And, then I made my son popcorn and had a few kernels. But to be honest, they tasted like cardboard. Well, the first two did. The last 5 tasted good. :/

Why  now? Why do a cleanse now in the dead of winter?

Well, my eating is at an all time high of trashiness. Yesterday, I inhaled like a box of Thin Mints, had two pieces of pizza for lunch, and met with a friend at Olive Garden for dinner. Granted, much of that could be explained away as gorging before what is hopefully a lifestyle change that actually sticks this time, but it honestly wasn’t that much better the days and weeks before.

Also, we are in a tough season of life. I’m in a rut. I could go into more depth, but that’s not the purpose of this post. Suffice it to say, a lot of the decision to do a cleanse right now, and force myself to name, recognize, and battle my addictions to food, laziness, general gluttony etc, comes from a spiritual place.

If I’m depending on sugar and caffeine so much that I was battling anxiety just thinking of giving them up??

Well, then, God and I have some business to tend to.

I told my husband today, as I attempted to slurp down the lunch shake (which involved a whole cucumber, kale, pineapple, a green apple, a lime, almond milk, celery, coconut oil….) that most of what’s getting me to do this is that I’m trying to treat it as a fast.

When I want to curse my headache, I pray. When I wish for something to munch on, I sing a worship song. When I’m irritable and blue and tired and want to curl up and cry, (a lot of that is life stuff, not necessarily the cleanse, FYI for those of you thinking of trying it!), I quote Scripture and tell my kids I love their munchkin faces. I will choose JOY I will choose JOY I will choose JOY!

I WILL break free. I WILL rise above this rut I’ve allowed myself to settle into. We WILL get through this season. God IS good, ALL the time, and while eating healthy isn’t necessary for my relationship with Him, it IS necessary for me to be at my best.

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About kristinlindeen

I am Kristin. I am Erik's wife. I am Joshua, Rebecca, and Andrew's mom. I am known nationally as the "QBQ! Daughter" and keynote on Personal Accountability and the QBQ. I am certified in Myers Briggs and am passionate about helping people understand themselves and others better. I am John and Karen's daughter. I am sister to many, mentor to some, friend to others. Most defining, I am Christ's daughter, adopted by God--rescued and saved by grace. And almost every single day, I need to be reminded of that truth. Come say "hi" at www.QBQ.com and of course, browse the blog! I'd love to hear from you, so comment away!
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One Response to Day 1 of 3 Day Cleanse

  1. Pingback: How I Got to Eat Spaghetti on Day 2 of my 3 Day Cleanse | The Making of a Mother

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