Category Archives: On Being Infertile

Now I Understand the “Oops”

For years, as a woman who struggled to successfully conceive a child, I struggled mightily with “The Oops.” I just didn’t understand how someone could have an oops, cry over an oops, be shocked by the oops, possibly even regret … Continue reading

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Dealing With Loss

Originally posted on ERIK LINDEEN:
Last week, my wife and I experienced the pain and loss of our fourth miscarriage. To be honest, I’m still coming to grips with it.  I was just starting to get excited about the idea…

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Marked with Infertility

Bear with me, it has been a while. My Trying to Conceive history: Easy conception in December of 2006 and then a 10 week “missed” miscarriage. D&C. Doctor discovered a septate in my uterus. Nurse incorrectly advised me to “go … Continue reading

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I’ve Been Half-Lying

“God is sovereign!” We’ve all said it. Complain, complain, critique, question, complain … “But it’s all good–God is sovereign!” I’m know I’m guilty of it. Saying that TRUTH but not wholeheartedly believing it. I mean, I BELIEVE God is sovereign. … Continue reading

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Mother’s Day: Here It Is Again

Mother’s Day used to hurt my heart. Over three years and two kids later … it still kinda does. Mother’s Day hurts my heart because I remember. I remember how it felt to wake up on that dreadful morning, knowing … Continue reading

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Things I’ll Miss

In an attempt to remind myself that this pregnancy really is nearing its end (whether I believe that truth right now or not), I’m going to try to list all the things I’ll miss about being pregnant. Here goes nothin’… … Continue reading

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25 Weeks: The Gift of Infertility

There I was, kissing my two year old angel goodbye, and struggling to climb semi gracefully out of the car. At 25 weeks pregnant, “graceful” is quickly becoming a thing of the past. I balanced a handful of trash, my … Continue reading

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Oh How Life Has Changed

Mother’s Day in 2009 … I purposefully scheduled a weekend getaway so as to not have to be at church. (Granted, I mixed up my dates, and we actually had our getaway the weekend before Mother’s Day, so I ended … Continue reading

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Trusting in the Midst of Grief

These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful journey of early pregnancy–cautious hope, … Continue reading

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I Don’t Want to Want It

“I just really don’t want to want it again, until I get it, and then I want to want it fully. Make sense?” I muttered this to my husband as we both attempted to drift to sleep, each battling our … Continue reading

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