Category Archives: On Being Infertile

Oh How Life Has Changed

Mother’s Day in 2009 … I purposefully scheduled a weekend getaway so as to not have to be at church. (Granted, I mixed up my dates, and we actually had our getaway the weekend before Mother’s Day, so I ended … Continue reading

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Trusting in the Midst of Grief

These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful journey of early pregnancy–cautious hope, … Continue reading

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I Don’t Want to Want It

“I just really don’t want to want it again, until I get it, and then I want to want it fully. Make sense?” I muttered this to my husband as we both attempted to drift to sleep, each battling our … Continue reading

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The Luxury of an Oops

Ever since I miscarried last week, I’ve had this phrase rolling through my mind: Luxury of an Oops It has occurred to me that having an “oops” pregnancy, while unexpected and kinda stressful, is actually a luxury. At least from … Continue reading

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TED talk: Glad I watched

Three weeks ago, my pastor sent me a link to a TED talk, saying that I might be interested. Today I finally took the time to watch it. He had said he was hooked by 8 minutes in. At two … Continue reading

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Mothers Day is great … for Mothers

It’s weird to be here. Where is here? Mothers Day. I’m a mother–on Mothers Day.  Last year, I was not a mother on Mothers Day, and that made me quite sad. And angry. And bitter. It was not a good … Continue reading

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Quite the Journey Together

A week less than 9 months ago, my good friend and her husband sat with me on my guest bedroom floor. They had just flown in from Minnesota for a visit, and we were catching up. At one point, my … Continue reading

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