Category Archives: On Grieving

Never Woulda Thought

Posted on October 4, 2012 by

When I woke up on September 21, 2012, I never woulda thought so much would happen in a matter of hours. My life took a major twist. And though we’ve ended up miraculously straightened back out, my heart will never … Continue reading →

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25 Weeks: The Gift of Infertility

Posted on June 12, 2012 by

There I was, kissing my two year old angel goodbye, and struggling to climb semi gracefully out of the car. At 25 weeks pregnant, “graceful” is quickly becoming a thing of the past. I balanced a handful of trash, my … Continue reading →

Posted in On Being Infertile, On Being Pregnant, On Faith and this Life, On Grieving, On Learning to HOPE, On Miscarrying | 4 Comments

Trusting in the Midst of Grief

Posted on February 13, 2012 by

These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful journey of early pregnancy–cautious hope, … Continue reading →

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Waterfalls, Dams and Kinkos.

Posted on August 2, 2011 by

I cry a lot lately. Just here and there, and everywhere–any random thing can make the waters rise and trickle down my cheeks. At the local park, as I round the corner of the pond and gaze on the most … Continue reading →

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The Luxury of an Oops

Posted on July 22, 2011 by

Ever since I miscarried last week, I’ve had this phrase rolling through my mind: Luxury of an Oops It has occurred to me that having an “oops” pregnancy, while unexpected and kinda stressful, is actually a luxury. At least from … Continue reading →

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Unexpected … Miscarriage

Posted on July 13, 2011 by

It’s amazing how something you weren’t expecting and not trying for can change your whole train of thought. Alter your entire way of thinking about the near future. Morph the image in your mind of the next steps. On July … Continue reading →

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Week 30: Didn’t, Wasn’t … Did, Am.

Posted on March 5, 2010 by

For so many months, I didn’t. For so long, I wasn’t. Many months, others did. Many times, others were. And I didn’t, and wasn’t. And yet, here I sit–I did, and I am. I’m the lady breathing heavily while wandering … Continue reading →

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Week 26: Finally My Turn

Posted on February 5, 2010 by

I was cleaning out old documents when I found this. Written March 3, 2008–it’s so weird to hear my voice from the past. These emotions seem so recent, and yet, so long ago. It’s weird how things change so quickly … Continue reading →

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Innocence Lost

Posted on November 8, 2009 by

Pregnancy is an amazing gift. A joyous surprise. A wonderful piece of news to share. But it’s different when you’ve miscarried. There’s hesitancy, a lack of excitement. Doubt rules, and fears overwhelm. Where jumping and screaming should occur, looks of … Continue reading →

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I Lied.

Posted on September 29, 2009 by

Written July 8, 2009 … My devotionals for the past few days have been on Ecclesiastes 3 “A Season for Everything”. Good chapter, good reminders … I kept thinking maybe my season of waiting would end soon. I kept wondering … Continue reading →

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