Category Archives: On Grieving

Never Woulda Thought

When I woke up on September 21, 2012, I never woulda thought so much would happen in a matter of hours. My life took a major twist. And though we’ve ended up miraculously straightened back out, my heart will never … Continue reading

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25 Weeks: The Gift of Infertility

There I was, kissing my two year old angel goodbye, and struggling to climb semi gracefully out of the car. At 25 weeks pregnant, “graceful” is quickly becoming a thing of the past. I balanced a handful of trash, my … Continue reading

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Trusting in the Midst of Grief

These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful journey of early pregnancy–cautious hope, … Continue reading

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Waterfalls, Dams and Kinkos.

I cry a lot lately. Just here and there, and everywhere–any random thing can make the waters rise and trickle down my cheeks. At the local park, as I round the corner of the pond and gaze on the most … Continue reading

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The Luxury of an Oops

Ever since I miscarried last week, I’ve had this phrase rolling through my mind: Luxury of an Oops It has occurred to me that having an “oops” pregnancy, while unexpected and kinda stressful, is actually a luxury. At least from … Continue reading

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Unexpected … Miscarriage

It’s amazing how something you weren’t expecting and not trying for can change your whole train of thought. Alter your entire way of thinking about the near future. Morph the image in your mind of the next steps. On July … Continue reading

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Week 30: Didn’t, Wasn’t … Did, Am.

For so many months, I didn’t. For so long, I wasn’t. Many months, others did. Many times, others were. And I didn’t, and wasn’t. And yet, here I sit–I did, and I am. I’m the lady breathing heavily while wandering … Continue reading

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