Category Archives: On Learning to HOPE

11 Weeks: Taco Bell & Pizza Pit

What is up with pregnancy making me want the nastiet food EV-ER?! It’s ridiculous really. When I should be eating the best foods ever, to assist in my health as well as my growing baby’s, I want Taco Bell and … Continue reading

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9 Weeks: 5th Time’s the Charm

Actually I guess the 3rd time was the first charm … Joshua Nelson being said charm. Man, I love that kid. But apparently (fingers still crossed pretty hard … ) the 5th time is the charm for us too. An … Continue reading

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I Don’t Want to Want It

“I just really don’t want to want it again, until I get it, and then I want to want it fully. Make sense?” I muttered this to my husband as we both attempted to drift to sleep, each battling our … Continue reading

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Quite the Journey Together

A week less than 9 months ago, my good friend and her husband sat with me on my guest bedroom floor. They had just flown in from Minnesota for a visit, and we were catching up. At one point, my … Continue reading

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Stages of Pregnancy … Not My Own

I am becoming an expert on the stages of pregnancy. Sadly, not my own, since neither of mine have gotten much further than pee on a stick, get excited, bond a little tiny bit with the essence of the being … Continue reading

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I Echo David …

Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my sighing. Listen to my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray. In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay … Continue reading

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Packing Up HOPE

A week ago yesterday, I packed up HOPE. I was done, that was it–no more. Erik and I had been informed of yet another pregnancy–yet another pregnancy that wasn’t ours’, that didn’t seem “fair” and that caused us to ask, … Continue reading

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